Remember that anvil I was waiting for? It found me. I can't ever remember a time when my plans ever go right so I'm hoping that if you're reading this you will do me a favor. Next time I have the bright idea to pick up and move across the country in 3 weeks (now down to 13 days) please knock me upside the head. To say that I am overwhelmed right now would be the understatement of the year. Everything seemed to be going well until yesterday. I woke up still in my happy place, and then little things started going wrong like the cost of licensing and having to pay for hospital privileges and the actual cost of driving across the country (ridiculous sums of money that I don't currently have). Add to that the fact that the house I thought I had fell through, my family still expects me to support them in addition to my life in Idaho, and I don't have a school for my son to enroll in later on this month. I feel like I'm loosing my mind and I'm begging for a miracle at this point because I just can't do it all.
These are the things you aren't prepared for when you graduate from school. I've heard similar stories from my midwife sisters, but even so I am not prepared for any of this. Mind you I'm still very happy about the position. I know this is what I'm meant to do, where I'm meant to be but the obstacles are killing my excitement.
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