Greetings from Idaho!

So...miracles big and small happen everyday. Things were able to be worked out and a new life has started for me and my son here in Idaho. We arrived last Friday after 3 long days in the car. I wish I could say that the trip was uneventful but as it turns out our last day came with a little drama. We were 90% through nowheresville Wyoming when all my warning lights cut on and my engine started straining. Of course there's hardly anything in Wyoming and as it turns out we had already passed the closest town with a car repair service station. So on a prayer I turned around drove back to find the service station. Here is where the lesson was learned-don't take people's words for anything. Be your own judge. It was fearful for me to be in a place that I knew nothing about (only others assumptions), 2000 + miles away from the place I knew as home, hoping that someone would be kind to me and help me out. I found just that, no prejudiced people, no one dressed in white sheets, just a kind man running his own shop with no employees who fixed my tire in 10 minutes and wished me well. I wish I knew his name, but I'm thinking of sending him a nice card or something because of how he treated me.
Anyhow, we made it safely and have begun settling in to our new home. I started as a CNM today and spent the day getting to know everyone and shadowing one of the L&D nurses. Everyone is so supportive and excited to have midwives, and frankly its really refreshing. I've never been in a place so open to new possibilities and so willing to change to meet the needs of the community. You can't help but get swept up in their excitement and passion. I'm so looking forward to meeting everyone and getting things going.

9/11

No profound words of wisdom to offer. Just prayers for our country and for all the families who are honoring their heroes today. We will never forget.

Love, light, and blessings to you all...

A little honesty from a stressed midwife

Remember that anvil I was waiting for? It found me. I can't ever remember a time when my plans ever go right so I'm hoping that if you're reading this you will do me a favor. Next time I have the bright idea to pick up and move across the country in 3 weeks (now down to 13 days) please knock me upside the head. To say that I am overwhelmed right now would be the understatement of the year. Everything seemed to be going well until yesterday. I woke up still in my happy place, and then little things started going wrong like the cost of licensing and having to pay for hospital privileges and the actual cost of driving across the country (ridiculous sums of money that I don't currently have). Add to that the fact that the house I thought I had fell through, my family still expects me to support them in addition to my life in Idaho, and I don't have a school for my son to enroll in later on this month. I feel like I'm loosing my mind and I'm begging for a miracle at this point because I just can't do it all.
These are the things you aren't prepared for when you graduate from school. I've heard similar stories from my midwife sisters, but even so I am not prepared for any of this. Mind you I'm still very happy about the position. I know this is what I'm meant to do, where I'm meant to be but the obstacles are killing my excitement.